I rarely do this anymore, but there is some type of urge in me that feels like turning my thoughts into readable ones will help make sense of them. I’m 18 years old and I am at a point of my life where each decision I make now has two options: handle it like a kid or like an adult. It doesn’t seem like deciding should be hard but dolefully it is. Reason being? The life as an adult is so much more serious, possesses much more freedom, and contains a lot more responsibility; whereas, life as a kid is careless, spontaneous, and innocent. Each one, in there own respect, has things there counterpart lack. But what is truly hitting me now is how often I was told that you will miss being kid. And not to say that now because I am 18 everything will change, but I have begun to notice the changes. It’s like watching the sun rise and set, it’s beautiful to watch and enjoy but its end is inevitable. Trust me I know that I still have a few years left to live it up like a kid; but when do I call it quites? If I do it too early than I miss out on what I can still get away with, if I wait too long then I am left catching up for the rest of my life. What I can say at least, and it feels weird saying it rather than hearing it, I’m going to really miss being a “kid”. Thats because the life of a child allows one to truly enjoy the world around them. And I begin to realize this more specifically this summer, the summer before my first year of college. This summer has been filled with more fun and  more spontaneity than I can remember. Why is this though? Is it because I never really took advantage of my summer or is it because it will probably be one of last; and because its my last, as they say, I have begun to appreciate what I soon won’t have?Regardless, its hard to decide what to do now that I am at a pivotal point in my life because I still want to live it up and yet I don’t want to regret it later on in life. So all in all, I’m at a crossroads in life and its time to decide which road to take as I approach the intersection… and a huge part of me says fuck the intersection and go off-roading.

-Cristian